Oh…that
feeling of a new month! A month where you get super fired up because it is a
chance to make real progress this month, it is a brand new start, a month where
you can change where you didn’t succeed the month before! You always enter into
a new month with big goals, high expectations & a FIRE under your booty!
I
entered April fired up! Although in terms of the scale in March I was still
stuck in my plateau but I was losing inches! April was going to be the month that
I shattered through my plateau!
Well
I sit here this week at the end of April realizing that by any sense of
measurement, I made no progress. My scale is still bouncing between the same
exact three pounds it has been. I cannot locate my measurements (super annoyed
with myself) from the beginning of April, but you can see from my picture here
that there has not been a significant change at all.
(Top picture from May 1st & bottom pic from April 1st.)
I could get discouraged.
Honestly,
I DID get discouraged. I had one of those stupid pity parties.
I
sat here on Wednesday beating myself up over the skipped workouts, the
unhealthy meals I consumed, the processed food I shoved in my mouth, the days I
hardly logged 4,000 steps on my Fitbit and the days I was way under my water
goal for the day.
Oh
yes, I could always point out my failures. But, because I am currently really
working on the concept of “talk to yourself the way you would a friend,” I had
to redirect my thoughts. I am a person who always sees the positive for others
& preaches positive thinking! However, this has always been a struggle for
myself that many are surprised about!
My
April changes were not physical at all.
You cannot measure my changes.
You
cannot see my changes.
But,
I can feel them.
First,
my relationship with food has really started making a big change. I once didn’t
question anything I put in my mouth. If I wanted it, I wanted it. Now, I’m
asking myself these questions:
Is it really worth it?
Is it
really hunger?
Is
this going to fuel my body?
I
am reading ingredients a lot & have recently said “NO” to many things
before shoving them in! I think I have possibly retrained my taste buds….I always
claimed I didn’t like almonds (or really any type of nut), and now I am in love
with KIND bars (the dark chocolate &
sea salt…OH MY!) and love almonds. I am grabbing a small handful here &
there for a snack or pre-workout! My taste buds are really craving those clean
& healthy foods!
A
positive mental attitude….self-confidence is everything! I have always….for as
long as I can remember….compared myself to everyone in everything! Running – oh
my, my pace is SO slow compared to her; I should be embarrassed! Weight – Ugh.
I’m so huge, she weighs like 10 pounds less than me. Clothes – I so wish I could
wear a dress like that; she looks great, but I’d look like a whale in it.
You
get the picture…..
This
is finally becoming my motto:
The
only person I need to be better than is the person I was yesterday.
My
attitude has changed…..I ran yesterday, 6.5 miles, I didn’t worry about my
pace. I just enjoyed the alone time I needed to reflect. I enjoyed my tunes. I
praised Him for giving me the ability to run that many miles. When I was done,
I knew how long I ran so of course, I knew what my pace ended up being, but I
didn’t care. I didn’t beat myself up with the normal “You were so slow today.
Your pace is horrible.” Instead, I said this, “6.5 miles is amazing & hard!
You did it. You achieved the distance you set out to do & took the time to
do it. No excuses.” I am over making fun
of myself for my slow pace because I am doing it. I am trying. I am moving. So
many are not.
When
I am running or at my classes, I can feel myself getting so much stronger! No,
to the eye you may not be able to see it...YET. But I feel it. My trainer told me
the other day that I am doing great & getting so much stronger. She said
she was impressed with my workouts & how awesome I’m doing. That was a feel
good moment I needed.
I feel it and she can see it.
I
just feel good right now.
I
feel great.
I
am taking care of myself again. I am back on the list of priorities. I feel
amazing when working out. When I am working out & taking the time to eat
right I am such a better wife, mom, daughter, sister & friend. Simply put,
because I feel great. Yesterday I got a sweet message from a friend who had just
seen me & said, “you look happy...just wanted to
let you know,……I can honestly say you looked like a woman of Joy last night!!!”
This made me smile because I know that maybe my
changes for April cannot be measured but I can feel them and others CAN, in
fact, SEE them.
Until Next Time~
*Krisha*
