The Start....

So here I go again....I have started probably five blogs over the past few years & I never do a darn thing with them after posting a few times! BUT - I NEED it this time. 

I need a place to come and unload, a place to write my goals, a place to cry, a place to laugh, a place to lift myself up, a place to brag about my family, a place to write about my daily failures, a place to write my successes, and even a place to list the daily excuses I give myself!

Let's be honest, with as much time as I can spend on Facebook and Pinterest in a day while at work, I should have time to post in a blog, right? What shall I post about? Umm...easy....life! Starting with my weight loss...my healthy lifestyle.

I swore OVER & OVER to myself that it would NEVER happen to me. I would never gain back some of the weight I lost....well maybe a few pounds, but never this much. I would never hit that higher decade of numbers again. I would never get back to the place where my self-confidence and self-worth hit low and I found myself staring in my closet every morning thinking, "What can I wear today that will hide my body?" I swore it, but here I am. From my low on Weight Watchers to today, I have put back on 15.2 pounds and have not weighed in free at my meetings since June. Why? Why did I let this happen?

I got lazy, and not really in fitness. I was training for a half-marathon for most of this time frame. But, I did get lazy in my food choices. I stopped thinking about what I was putting in my body and I stopped thinking about how much I was putting in my body. I will be successful all day at work, head home for the evening and completely blow it. I really cannot figure out how I have let myself go this far off the track. Now, I cannot seem to get myself back on track, I cannot seem to get over the anger at myself. 

But, it is time. It is the start of it now. GET OVER IT! You screwed up, you are not perfect (as much as I think I might be at times)!!!! I need to go back to knowing and believing that I am worth it, I am worth spending time on every day! 

My goals are to finally get to my real goal weight, wear anything I would like in my closet and not hide, walk around self-confident, feel good about me, set an amazing example for my girls, be healthy. There are going to be so many challenges that jump in my face (such as shoulder surgery in November), but I always give the advice to others of "keep on truckin' on." So, for once, I will live my own advice and get out of my own damn way! 

So here we go, here is to the start of my blog, the new start of me, a better me.